I rediscovered a song from a year or two ago that I had on repeat in my car.
Feeling this song, a lot of it sums up how I feel about a lot of different aspects of my life right now...
Change- Daniel Merriweather
I've come to the conclusion that every time I drink apple juice, i feel queasy for a bit afterwards.
Considering that I *am* allergic to apples, in the raw form, this should be no surprise. very saddening, however.
On another note, I hate packing. It seems that my belongings have multiplied exponentially from the 1 box and 2 bags of luggage I came here with. But, considering I threw out a fair amount of clothing and have barely bought anything other than food in the past 4 months.... there's not much more there than there was.
I loathe carrying and moving boxes (and any other objects) more than packing.
Back to the boxes.
Departure for the xmas holidays in less than a week. 6 days to be precise, minus 2 hours. But who's counting?
I'd love to say that I have mixed feelings about going home, but as I'm in the process of packing, throwing out, and preparing boxes (moving across town in January), I have to admit, if I'm being honest, that I can't wait to get out of here.
It's an overwhelming feeling of just wanting to be home that grows as the departure time and date approaches; This week seems ridiculously long, stretching forever in front of me. In comparison to the past 4 months which have flown by for the most part. There were some stretches where I'll admit to compulsively checking how many days until Christmas; other periods where I had those "really? only 3 weeks left?" feelings.
I had originally planned to go home for good at Christmas. Lack of a job down south, and a good one up here changed those plans. I think I'm still getting used to the fact that, other than Goose Break in April, early January I'll be saying bye until late late late June. No Thanxgiving Break a month and change in to look forward to, this time. A little depressing.
Basically, my decision came down to being based on financial/job reasons. Nothing personal to anyone, here or there, but that's just how the cards played out.
I feel that my heart is in one place, but my reality is another. I'm sure eventually sometime during the inevitable deep freeze of January, they will merge together a little more cohesively than they are now.
They closed the access road this morning. Flights are grounded.
There's actually no way into town, or no way out.
Snow.snow.snow.
Love it.
On another note, 12 days until I'm home for 2 and a half weeks. I'll admit I'm excited, and that it's too short. Love or hate life up here, I realized how much I miss home. Not in an overwhelming homesickness kind of way, more in a coming to the realization that regardless of how much I love to travel, after this year is over I will be attempting to find a job somewhere in the Townships or Montreal area. No more of this leaving for a year at a time. I guess you have to have distance to get perspective on such things, but the urge to flee has been extinguished, I think, or will be come June.
On a brighter note, I'm planning to go back to Europe this summer. Huzzah!
I stumbled across Project 365 when searching for something completely irrelevant, and was intrigued. Basically, the idea is to take one picture a day for a year (ergo the 365), based on some sort of theme. I'll be starting this weekend, mine is located here: http://365project.org/alleta2010/365
On another note, I finally tried beaver. Other than the rubbery parts, its actually rather delightful.
Survived two flea markets this week. It turns out that this is a flea market culture. I can't complain, as I ate all sorts of great foods (most of which I photograped and will upload when I find my memory card reader).
Haven't been updating much, as I started teaching sec 5 this week. Was given precisely :4 minutes warning, so you can imagine the amount of planning I had done. You can also imagine my level of cluelessness.
