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Posted by S. , Wednesday, December 29, 2010 3:56 PM
I went through my last post and added links to all of the songs.
That's how occupied I am. I should be working on math lesson plans, I'm fully aware.
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If you want to know me, you must 1st know my iPod...
Posted by S. , Tuesday, December 28, 2010 11:05 PM
I had planned out an eloquent, elaborate post about friendships, change, etc.
And then I overdosed on sugar, took NyQuil, and waited for reaally slow internet to load. And so, the planned post will come at some later time and date. And instead, a list of songs I rediscovered after coaxing one of my old laptops to turn on, for a brief moment of time (Fraaaaank, helllllp!) 10 Songs which I highly recommend.
1- A Lifetime, Better than Ezra (oh, to be driving on Shore Road in York right now)
2- Take a Picture- Filter (it's sec 4, I'm eating a bagel and failing math class in that classroom with the bright orange carpets that are since long gone)
3- Swing Life Away- Rise Against (and if you like it: Saviour, Audience of One, Prayer of the Refugees by the same)
4-Flawed Design- Stabilo
5- Symbolistic White Walls- Matthew Good Band (and then Strange Days, and then read: At Last, There's Nothing Left to Say).
6-Mrs Potters Lullaby- Counting Crows (the band that one must know to know me. August & Everything After was my 1st ever cassette. and cd. This is the one country-like song I'll admit to loving. How can I not love a song with tilt a whirl imagery?)
7- Undeniable- Mat Kearney
8-Boston- Augustana
9- Never Too Late- Three Days Grace (the 1st time I heard this was on Canada Day, the year it came out on one of the infamous annual Ottawa/Canada Day road/camping trips which I am debating resurrecting this coming summer...Great song to jog through the Ottawa Valley near Manotick to)
10- Dice- Finley Quaye (OC fans will recognize this from New Year's Eve Season 1)
11- (An extra two because it's the holidays and I'm feeling generous): The Ocean- The Bravery (ocean. 'nuff said for those who know me. Also by The Bravery: Time Won't Let Me Go, and Believe)
12- Pure Morning- Placebo (I was a 90s teen, alright? It was on a Big Shiny Tunes cassette, which makes it cool)
I love rediscovering old playlists, and old favorites. Music is the number one form of time travel.
Things I love about where I'm from
Posted by S. , Thursday, December 23, 2010 8:16 PM
When I go get a coffee at my favorite cafe, despite having been gone for 4 months, the woman working there comments that I;m back, and asks how James Bay is. And the fact that they still know I usually take a moka fudge.
More of the black bears
Posted by S. , Tuesday, December 21, 2010 11:43 PM
The sign is located on top of a ski hill.
Black bears hibernate during ski season.
Black bears are afraid of fluorescent ski and snowboard clothing.
Just saying.
Bromont tomorrow, Red Bull and Creme Egg bars are waiting patiently.
In the event of a surprise black bear...
Posted by S. 11:42 AM
Remember, above all else, you must impress the bear. Oh, SkiBromont.
Nighttime Mountaintop thoughts
Posted by S. , Monday, December 20, 2010 9:12 PM
I forgot how skiing truly is my catharsis. Moments of pure bliss, mixed in with some adrenaline and some rather humourous moments.
It was when I was skiing down a trail that it hit me: I'm home for 3 weeks, in my old (real?) life. How easy it would be to just stay here, and keep last winter's status quo and continue on like this until the snow melts this spring. And yet... part of the homesickness I felt this November is more of a... longing for the way things were. And when I found myself back the way they were, I realized: I'm ready to move on the next step in life. If that means waiting a little longer to come home, once the next stage is started, I'm OK with it.
The reason I became so obsessed with skiing a few years ago is because that's when I became a bit of a fear junkie. I fell hard, I quit for years. Winter got to me, psychologically, worse and worse every year. So, I decided to turn a flaw, a weak point into a positive one. And I learned that facing fear head on is kinda fun. That's who I am. I learned to be more calm, more zen, more mature this past year. It was, all in all, a crap year with a lot of emotional things happening, friend, school, etc-wise. And I got through it calmly with no total breakdowns, no nuclear blowups, no Gossip Girl style revenge. I took something that used to terrify me, make me break down in tears in fear on the slopes, make me want to throw my skis into the woods into something I love, and am good at. I can do that with anything, given a proper reason to.
And so... now I find myself in a situation. Anyone that really, truly knows me knows two things. 1- If I get dramatic and go nuclear, it's because I'm hurt in a way where the heart is involved. and 2- my heart rarely gets involved. I've fallen in love a grand total of once. One time, one person, a few years ago, that I would calculate into my life plans. It was not, for a variety of reasons, reciprocated. I got over it.
I got over a lot lately. Fear of rejection, I dealt with this fall. I'm able to say: yes, I have feelings for someone. No, I was not entirely sure they were reciprocated. Yes, I'm able to admit that was a determining factor in my decision to return to James Bay after Xmas until June. No, I am not sure that the person in question calculated me in the same way. Nor am I asked them to do so, in making a decision.
All I'm asking for is understanding. To understand the above 2 points and not judge too harshly. Not necessarily to believe the best, but to not believe the worst. It's amazing how a few runs down the mountain clears the brain. If only there was a ski hill near Waskaganish....
Time for a bubble bath. Tomorrow: snowboarding!
My knee is holding up fabulously. There were no clicking sounds at all when skiing tonight.
Tomorrow is solstice. First day of Winter. And Ullr giveth: 15-25 CM of powder snow predicted for tomorrow.
Ay-o, I'm tired of using technology
Posted by S. , Sunday, December 19, 2010 4:21 PM
A watched phone never rings.
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